Winding Down

A few days ago Kath procured Bob Seger tickets making the third time we will have seen him perform. First in Indianapolis, then twice here in Saginaw. In past tours, for what ever reason, Saginaw seemed to be the first stop on his tours. But this coming show will be very different then previous tours. First, he didn't start the tour here, and if the ugly rumors are true, this will be the last time he plays Saginaw.

In the grand arc that is my life, attending his final Saginaw concert will be another event marking my winding down of life. It’s similar to having the motor that operates your power window quitting. Followed a month or so later when the pump that runs the windshield fluid also stops. Only to be followed by a hose failing. Taken individually these don't amount to very much. Yet, after a while these “small events” truly begin adding up. Your car is dying and nickel and dimeing you to death as it goes. It's just now you are noticing.

All I'm saying is I've finally noticed what begins at the moment of birth, our lives began winding down. Early on we were so busy growing to notice. With age these events and patterns begin appearing. Not to get overly dramatic and all “oh woe is me,” but I see the handwriting on life’s wall. I try very hard to be a realist. Pillars of life once thought never to fail are or have begun dying. Before you start playing those tiny violins, I realize this wall is very long with it’s ending still out of sight.  I believe much is still to come and to be enjoyed.

Closing in on 60, I see things much differently then when I was closing in on 20. It feels as if life is starting to pick up it’s pace in winding down. Mom and Dad are gone. The house I grew up in has been sold. I'll be 58 this year and in 7 more yeas I'll be retired. Movie stars, tv stars, recording artists, people that I looked up to, important people I’d heard of from my youth, today seem to dropping at the tip of a hat. The world I grew up in is fading fast and soon will be hardly a footnote in modern history. A line from the movie, Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull struck me since hearing it. The character Dean Charles Stanforth said, “We seem to have reached the age where life stops giving us things and starts taking them away”. That may not entirely be true but at times it surely feels that way.

I’m part of a generation called the “baby boomers”, a once very sought after demographic. Well we still are, but now for the boring items of life, denture creams, bifocals, heating pads, joint creams, canes, etc. Younger demographics have filled our void. There are similarities between our generations, they still want the same movies genres that we once craved but no longer attend. Now we take our grandkids to see their movies in a theater next door. At least these days, sound system is fantastic! Yet, the pop is still overpriced.

Opportunities for seeing Bob Seger live are ending. Knowing this is very bittersweet. In the few years since his last performance here, a friend passed away. Our friend was there with other friends, and it was a nice surprise to see them that night. I'll be thinking of many things during the show. How Bob Seger is 72 and still able to preform like this. How much I have enjoyed his songs these many years and how I can still sing them badly. That this may be his last show in Saginaw. How much our friend would have loved to be there for this last show. That many new, interesting chapters are still to be told. All while listening to a live performance of Against The Wind.

Doug Thornhill (dct)